When my kids were young we lived a hectic life. Between work, their school projects and homework, our dogs and cats and birds and rabbits and ferret – whew, plus our active lifestyle of swimming, hiking, camping, mountain biking, motorcycle riding, kayaking, paintball playing, it was pretty much the land of chaos. I used to have to steal away a half hour for meditation in my bedroom whenever I could to retain my sanity.

Through all of this drama I used to pray for peace. No kids fighting, no rushing to get everyone packed, no scramble to get all the clothes washed on Sunday nights at midnight, just time to kick back, relax and enjoy life…aaaaaah.

And now, the kids are grown and have kids of their own, I’m much better at time management, we’re down to three small dogs and a three legged cat, there’s much less fighting and drama around me, I get to choose how busy I am, there’s lots of time for meditation, I spend a lot of time at the beach and I’ve learned to create inner peace…but, sometimes it’s kind of boring.

Without the constant whirl of drama and demand on my time there’s no need to ‘sneak in’ a meditation, so it isn’t the oasis it was. And, I don’t need to ‘make time’ for myself to grow and learn a new tool, so doesn’t feel quite as self-satisfying. Spending solitary time listening to the sweet sounds of nature is something I do quite frequently now so it doesn’t hold quite the same rejuvenation it did.

That’s not to say that I don’t enjoy and treasure each of those times now, but honestly, without the contrast of chaos those moments aren’t as expansive for me as they were.

Am I saying, “don’t strive to bring peace into your life,” no, not even a little bit! I’m just saying maybe it’s not really peace that we’re looking for.

I’ve spent a lot of time letting go of drama and inner turmoil and I’ve learned to stay centered much of the time. While that’s great for my body, mind and spiritual health, I now find myself craving excitement in much the same way I used to crave peace.  Now I’m making time to do things that bring me out of my comfort zone, like playing a solo concert of songs I’ve written myself (I still can’t believe I really did that…wow).

In looking at my life it seems I never really crave one thing over the other, what I crave is a balance of all sides of the spectrum. Without excitement peace is ordinary and without serenity drama is overwhelming. When it’s quiet I miss the hustle of making last minute Halloween costumes for the kids and when it’s all out crazy I wish I were floating in a tube on the lake…still, I completely value the contrast because I know it makes everything that much sweeter.

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Cat Parah offers Intuitive Happiness Coaching, Biofield Release, Energy Adjustments and Self-Hypnosis Sessions and Workshops and Classes. When you’re ready to Awaken Your Intuitive Happiness contact Cat at cat.parah@gmail.com.

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